Dear Rachel,
One day, I was feeling kinda down...had one of those weeks where I just felt defeated. I needed to cheer up. I needed to feel better about myself and go have fun.
So what did I do? A little retail therapy...healthy living style!
I bought myself the cutest Vintage looking red beach bike. It was quite the task to try and find a RED vintage looking bike for women within my price range. Did you know that if you are a grown female looking for a new stylish bicycle you only have a choice of pastel colors...mostly pink and baby blue...but if you are a male you get your choice of colors blue, green, orange...any of them...what the heck is wrong with society?
Anyway, if took days of online research but I finally found one at a faraway Target and here is my beautiful Ruby:
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I also went out and bought a top of the line bike lock and my dad gave me a beautiful white Schwinn basket to place on the handlebars. :)
It is such a thrill riding it to the store on my day off instead of driving or riding it to meet friends places. I love the wind on my face and it makes me feel like a care-free kid again. Plus, I love that a healthy lifestyle/healthy living is a side note to the fun of riding it.
I usually am a fan of snow, but I almost wish daylight savings and winter didn't happen so soon, because it cuts into bike riding time.
Zoom, zip, zuoey, I love riding my bike,
Angela
Sunday, November 18, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
Fall Eating and Drinking
Dear Angela,
I know it has been ages since I last posted but believe me when I say I was doing my fair share of eating and not exercising in the meantime... When times are busy I seem to forget that what I put into my body matters. I seem to avoid taking the stairs because instead I want to race up on the escalator to save even more time. Then September approaches when all of a sudden I am faced with the return of the Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte...
Excuses, excuses. I KNOW.
Now that I've had my fair share of Pumpkin Spice Lattes (already) I have decided: no more! It was fun, it is probably my favorite coffee drink of the year, but I am done. I'll wait until next September to go PSL Crazy again. Even without the whipped cream on top, I feel like with that drink in my life my waistline will only end up expanding.
Of course, some of my other favorite foods around this time of year include:
Pumpkin anything baked goods
Caramel apples (making them is a lot of fun)
Hot chocolate by the fire
Sweet potato pie
Zucchini bread (again with the baked goods)
I should make a mental note now: moderation, moderation, moderation. I don't believe in eliminating everything that brings such joy- but I do believe in one small piece of something delightful versus gorging on an entire tray of muffins.
I might also make a rule: avoid the work breakroom and the coworker who brings in the steady supply of brownies and cookies to pass around. Yes, this is usually my favorite coworker of all time but do I really need those easy extra calories? Of course not.
Your Addicted to PSL Friend,
Rachel
I know it has been ages since I last posted but believe me when I say I was doing my fair share of eating and not exercising in the meantime... When times are busy I seem to forget that what I put into my body matters. I seem to avoid taking the stairs because instead I want to race up on the escalator to save even more time. Then September approaches when all of a sudden I am faced with the return of the Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte...
Excuses, excuses. I KNOW.
Now that I've had my fair share of Pumpkin Spice Lattes (already) I have decided: no more! It was fun, it is probably my favorite coffee drink of the year, but I am done. I'll wait until next September to go PSL Crazy again. Even without the whipped cream on top, I feel like with that drink in my life my waistline will only end up expanding.
Of course, some of my other favorite foods around this time of year include:
I should make a mental note now: moderation, moderation, moderation. I don't believe in eliminating everything that brings such joy- but I do believe in one small piece of something delightful versus gorging on an entire tray of muffins.
I might also make a rule: avoid the work breakroom and the coworker who brings in the steady supply of brownies and cookies to pass around. Yes, this is usually my favorite coworker of all time but do I really need those easy extra calories? Of course not.
Your Addicted to PSL Friend,
Rachel
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Bridesmaids Dresses
Hello Rachel,
I am sorry it has taken me so long to post...as always I blame school. I pay thousands upon thousands of dollars for graduate school, so unfortunately even though this blog is much more awesome than homework, school comes first.
I've also been busy because one of my nearest-dearest friends has asked me to be the maid-of-honor in her wedding. She got engaged in June and plans to quickly plan the wedding for April.
Okay, before I start I wanted to get one thing straight. I love, love, love and I am completely honored to be a bridesmaid. It makes me incredibly happy that out of anyone in the world this wonderful friend of mine has chosen me to be the maid-of-honor. I love being a part of weddings because they are so beautiful, romantic and what I believe high-school dances were preparing us for in our adult lives. As the maid-of-honor, I get to go wedding dress shopping with her, see the reception hall ahead of time, be the one who saves the day with extra hair pins and safety pins or whatever is needed, throw her parties that lead up to the wedding like a shower or bachelorette party and I am so excited about all of it!
But Rachel, as you may know there are certain things in this world destined to make one feel bad about our body (bathing suits, dance costumes and ballet attire, the jeans we wiggle into..) and bridesmaids dresses are one of them. It is just hard wearing a dress that someone else picks out for you. Plus, bridesmaids dresses are designed with the intent of not upstaging the bride. Basically bridesmaids dresses are already played down without one adding their personal feelings about their body to them.
Luckily, my friend is the sweetest bride in the whole world and even though she does not want to order different cuts, she really really wants to find a dress that will look good and flatter all of us. This is different from the bride in a wedding my friend was part of the bridal party for, who just said "Here this is the dress order it." It was strapless and tiny. I remember thinking when she showed it to me that I couldn't imagine wearing that.
The bride I am the maid-of-honor for does not want anyone to be horrified by the dress, but her bridal party is made up of two petite girls, one very tall box shaped girl, me-busty Macgee and a girl closer to my body type with a little less bust, little more tummy. Basically, there is every body type under the sun.
Here's the other thing that I have to stop myself from huddling in a corner crying about (gigantic exaggeration), the store only carries up to size 12 (European sizes the equivalent to a size 6/8 American) in sample dresses, meaning me and the bigger bridesmaids have to order the dress without ever trying it on. In the meantime, the petite girls get to show the bride what they look like in each dress, completely ruling out the ones they don't look good in.
After much frustration with trying to please everyone, the bride did some internet research and asked the sales woman in the store...what dresses are most flattering on all body types? The answer: Empress cut, A-Line, two-strap dresses. Similar to this....
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...but short and blue with a smaller top.
Kinda like this:
I agree...that dress will look good on every body type...except mine. Story of my life. The dress fits perfect everywhere...except the bust. Nothing has been decided yet and if I told the bride I was that opposed to the dress I know she wouldn't make me wear it, but who wants to be that person in the wedding party especially after she chose me to be the maid-of-honor! In fact, I am really hoping she doesn't ever find this post. I will just deal, try to lose all the weight I can before April and when that doesn't work, I will buy a cute little shawl or something to cover up what the dress won't. After all, I am used to that kind of thing by now.
Besides, it's not my day anyway. I am there for my nearest-dearest friend on the day she marries the perfect guy she thought would never come along, to wish her luck, make sure she is gorgeous and smiling. She will be there to do the same when it is my turn...so I can wear this dress for her.
Your friend,
Angela
I am sorry it has taken me so long to post...as always I blame school. I pay thousands upon thousands of dollars for graduate school, so unfortunately even though this blog is much more awesome than homework, school comes first.
I've also been busy because one of my nearest-dearest friends has asked me to be the maid-of-honor in her wedding. She got engaged in June and plans to quickly plan the wedding for April.
Okay, before I start I wanted to get one thing straight. I love, love, love and I am completely honored to be a bridesmaid. It makes me incredibly happy that out of anyone in the world this wonderful friend of mine has chosen me to be the maid-of-honor. I love being a part of weddings because they are so beautiful, romantic and what I believe high-school dances were preparing us for in our adult lives. As the maid-of-honor, I get to go wedding dress shopping with her, see the reception hall ahead of time, be the one who saves the day with extra hair pins and safety pins or whatever is needed, throw her parties that lead up to the wedding like a shower or bachelorette party and I am so excited about all of it!
But Rachel, as you may know there are certain things in this world destined to make one feel bad about our body (bathing suits, dance costumes and ballet attire, the jeans we wiggle into..) and bridesmaids dresses are one of them. It is just hard wearing a dress that someone else picks out for you. Plus, bridesmaids dresses are designed with the intent of not upstaging the bride. Basically bridesmaids dresses are already played down without one adding their personal feelings about their body to them.
Luckily, my friend is the sweetest bride in the whole world and even though she does not want to order different cuts, she really really wants to find a dress that will look good and flatter all of us. This is different from the bride in a wedding my friend was part of the bridal party for, who just said "Here this is the dress order it." It was strapless and tiny. I remember thinking when she showed it to me that I couldn't imagine wearing that.
The bride I am the maid-of-honor for does not want anyone to be horrified by the dress, but her bridal party is made up of two petite girls, one very tall box shaped girl, me-busty Macgee and a girl closer to my body type with a little less bust, little more tummy. Basically, there is every body type under the sun.
Here's the other thing that I have to stop myself from huddling in a corner crying about (gigantic exaggeration), the store only carries up to size 12 (European sizes the equivalent to a size 6/8 American) in sample dresses, meaning me and the bigger bridesmaids have to order the dress without ever trying it on. In the meantime, the petite girls get to show the bride what they look like in each dress, completely ruling out the ones they don't look good in.
After much frustration with trying to please everyone, the bride did some internet research and asked the sales woman in the store...what dresses are most flattering on all body types? The answer: Empress cut, A-Line, two-strap dresses. Similar to this....
...but short and blue with a smaller top.
Kinda like this:
.......with a less defined waist.
I agree...that dress will look good on every body type...except mine. Story of my life. The dress fits perfect everywhere...except the bust. Nothing has been decided yet and if I told the bride I was that opposed to the dress I know she wouldn't make me wear it, but who wants to be that person in the wedding party especially after she chose me to be the maid-of-honor! In fact, I am really hoping she doesn't ever find this post. I will just deal, try to lose all the weight I can before April and when that doesn't work, I will buy a cute little shawl or something to cover up what the dress won't. After all, I am used to that kind of thing by now.
Besides, it's not my day anyway. I am there for my nearest-dearest friend on the day she marries the perfect guy she thought would never come along, to wish her luck, make sure she is gorgeous and smiling. She will be there to do the same when it is my turn...so I can wear this dress for her.
Your friend,
Angela
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Around the Web

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Dear Angela,
I enjoyed reading your post and wish you all the luck in the world. In particular, I loved reading your detailed food list. Often I feel like this is the hardest part of healthy living- just trying to sort out, "Okay, well what do I eat exactly?" I am envious of cities where you can have fresh produce delivered to your door on a regular basis. Or I would love to live next to the Farmer's Market where grabbing farm fresh fruit and veggies would only require walking out the door.
All is quiet on my own path to healthy living. I do not have much news to report. I suppose I could brag I turned down cake(!) at an office party today but that would also be cheating because this weekend I indulged in Baskin-Robbins ice cream. So instead of writing more about my own progress I will just share links I've collected from around the web.
"I think we’ve been conditioned to eat without thinking, and in doing so to eat way too much. To stuff ourselves until we’re gorged. Which of course isn’t healthy at all."
Until next time,
Rachel
Friday, June 8, 2012
My Mission..Shall I Choose to Accept it....
Dear Rachel,
As mentioned or possibly not mentioned before for the past couple of years now I have been struggling with hypertension also known as high blood pressure. A year ago when I went to the doctor. She told me that if my blood pressure did not go down then I would have to be placed on medication for it.
This may not sound like a horribly dreadful thing to people, but I was twenty-five at the time, merely a quarter of a century old, and I was going to have to take a daily pill that wasn't birth control! Meaning with birth control I would be taking two pills a day? Old people take pills, I don't want too.
On July 2nd, I will return to the doctor for this year's physical. I have had my blood pressure taken since she told me I'd have to go on medication and it had gone down significantly, but it is still high. So this time I am hoping they will tell me I am fine. Here is my plan:
I will continue doing 30minute cardio workouts at least twice a week. Ideally, I would like this to be as many days as it was a few months ago, but my life is very busy right now, so I'm trying to be honest and realistic. However, I will TRY to go everyday either before or after work.
There is also certain foods that are supposed to lower your blood pressure and certain foods that will raise it. Until July 2nd, I plan to eat mostly the food that lower blood pressure everyday, avoiding the ones that higher it.
Foods that higher blood pressure are foods that are harder to digest and clog your arteries. These include red meat, cheese and thick-creamy-dairy such as ice cream or milk chocolate. Also no caffeine, it puts pressure too much pressure on the heart and speeds it up.
Food that lowers blood pressure that I want my diet to include:
1) Celery
2) Coldwater Fish- salmon, tuna, mackerel, cod, trout, halibut, herring and sardines
3) Broccoli
4) Dandelion (I don't know if this will actually happen, but it was on the list)
5) Whole Grain Oats (Oatmeal! Yum!)
6) Black Beans/ beans in general (making sure not to get canned beans overloaded with sodium)
7) Berries- Raspberries, Strawberries, Blueberries (Best part of diet!)
8) Low-fat dairy (Good thing, I already drink Skim milk!)
9) Spinach
10) Sunflower seeds
11) White baked Potato (watch any toppings)
12) Bananas (I like to eat! I like to eat! Apples and Bananas....)
13) Soybeans (Does soy milk count?)
14) One square of dark chocolate a day (REALLY!!? I have your permission to eat chocolate!)
15) Kiwis
16) Watermelon
17) Raisins
18) Water with Lemon
Let's see if I have the self-control to do this. I am not saying I am restricting my diet to these 18 food items and only these 18 food items, but I am planning meals around them. For example, for dinner I bought some frozen fish fillets to cook and broccoli...for lunch I am making a black bean roll-up...for breakfast oatmeal with skim-milk and fruit on top. Okay, okay...so all those food are on the list, but trust me it's hard not to stray just a little when offered other food and that's where I break the rules, but if my diet consists MOSTLY of this...I really hope the doctor will give me good news this time.
I will let you know either way....but please don't assume I was a failure or please let me know its ok if for some reason after a diet and exercise change I still don't pass the blood pressure test!
Biting my fingernails, (Hey wait! That's not on the list)
Angela
As mentioned or possibly not mentioned before for the past couple of years now I have been struggling with hypertension also known as high blood pressure. A year ago when I went to the doctor. She told me that if my blood pressure did not go down then I would have to be placed on medication for it.
This may not sound like a horribly dreadful thing to people, but I was twenty-five at the time, merely a quarter of a century old, and I was going to have to take a daily pill that wasn't birth control! Meaning with birth control I would be taking two pills a day? Old people take pills, I don't want too.
On July 2nd, I will return to the doctor for this year's physical. I have had my blood pressure taken since she told me I'd have to go on medication and it had gone down significantly, but it is still high. So this time I am hoping they will tell me I am fine. Here is my plan:
I will continue doing 30minute cardio workouts at least twice a week. Ideally, I would like this to be as many days as it was a few months ago, but my life is very busy right now, so I'm trying to be honest and realistic. However, I will TRY to go everyday either before or after work.
There is also certain foods that are supposed to lower your blood pressure and certain foods that will raise it. Until July 2nd, I plan to eat mostly the food that lower blood pressure everyday, avoiding the ones that higher it.
Foods that higher blood pressure are foods that are harder to digest and clog your arteries. These include red meat, cheese and thick-creamy-dairy such as ice cream or milk chocolate. Also no caffeine, it puts pressure too much pressure on the heart and speeds it up.
Food that lowers blood pressure that I want my diet to include:
1) Celery
2) Coldwater Fish- salmon, tuna, mackerel, cod, trout, halibut, herring and sardines
3) Broccoli
4) Dandelion (I don't know if this will actually happen, but it was on the list)
5) Whole Grain Oats (Oatmeal! Yum!)
6) Black Beans/ beans in general (making sure not to get canned beans overloaded with sodium)
7) Berries- Raspberries, Strawberries, Blueberries (Best part of diet!)
8) Low-fat dairy (Good thing, I already drink Skim milk!)
9) Spinach
10) Sunflower seeds
11) White baked Potato (watch any toppings)
12) Bananas (I like to eat! I like to eat! Apples and Bananas....)
13) Soybeans (Does soy milk count?)
14) One square of dark chocolate a day (REALLY!!? I have your permission to eat chocolate!)
15) Kiwis
16) Watermelon
17) Raisins
18) Water with Lemon
Let's see if I have the self-control to do this. I am not saying I am restricting my diet to these 18 food items and only these 18 food items, but I am planning meals around them. For example, for dinner I bought some frozen fish fillets to cook and broccoli...for lunch I am making a black bean roll-up...for breakfast oatmeal with skim-milk and fruit on top. Okay, okay...so all those food are on the list, but trust me it's hard not to stray just a little when offered other food and that's where I break the rules, but if my diet consists MOSTLY of this...I really hope the doctor will give me good news this time.
I will let you know either way....but please don't assume I was a failure or please let me know its ok if for some reason after a diet and exercise change I still don't pass the blood pressure test!
Biting my fingernails, (Hey wait! That's not on the list)
Angela
Friday, June 1, 2012
Review of May Progress
Dear Angela,
Funny you mention Christina Hendricks because I am one of the many who believe she is one of the most beautiful women on the planet. It is refreshing to see voluptuous curves on TV. I wish our media could show an entire range of body types instead of always the typical skinny blonde. There is no shame in being skinny or blonde but I just wish we were seeing the full spectrum. At some point I want to believe that beauty exists in all shapes and sizes.
My progress on the "trying to get healthy" front has had its up and downs in the month of May. Let's start with the positive.
1. I have managed to resist my daily lattes and rewarded myself with a pair of Tom's as I said I would (read original entry here). Now I have them on occasion, which is much better than having them every single day. I am drinking more water and iced tea in its place. Summer is a good time for iced tea anyway. It feels like a natural pairing.
2. I've started a new rule: on weekdays I will allow myself either a salad or salad wrap for dinner. Nothing else. I'm actually comfortable with this one. It some ways it makes meal planning much easier to have this more uniform approach.
3. I had both a full physical and dentist appointment in the month of May. I am putting this as a positive because I think taking care of the body promotes a feeling of well-being.
4. I didn't let myself go too crazy with eating on Memorial Day weekend. I did turkey sloppy joes instead of BBQ. I picked up light Pringles instead of the regular potato chips. And so on. I'll try to do the same thing for 4th of July- finding a slightly healthier alternative in my food options.
Now, let's skip over the negative and pretend I was a saint this month... just kidding!
1. I haven't been able to establish a normal exercise routine that works with both my lifestyle and schedule. Or I've been too lazy or occupied with other things. You decide.
2. Um, what is up all the delicious food always brought in at the workplace? Am I really supposed to resist chocolate brownies or garlic breadsticks or all the other tempting food that surround me? Please, someone, just bring in carrots! No more work place binging!
3. I feel I should be 100 times more committed to starting a healthier lifestyle but I'm not. I would rather relax in my down-time... I would rather meet friends for eating out than cook up asparagus at home... I would rather read a book than do 30 Day Shred... but I have goals in mind for June and those goals do not require more couch surfing.
Until next time,
Rachel
Funny you mention Christina Hendricks because I am one of the many who believe she is one of the most beautiful women on the planet. It is refreshing to see voluptuous curves on TV. I wish our media could show an entire range of body types instead of always the typical skinny blonde. There is no shame in being skinny or blonde but I just wish we were seeing the full spectrum. At some point I want to believe that beauty exists in all shapes and sizes.
My progress on the "trying to get healthy" front has had its up and downs in the month of May. Let's start with the positive.
1. I have managed to resist my daily lattes and rewarded myself with a pair of Tom's as I said I would (read original entry here). Now I have them on occasion, which is much better than having them every single day. I am drinking more water and iced tea in its place. Summer is a good time for iced tea anyway. It feels like a natural pairing.
2. I've started a new rule: on weekdays I will allow myself either a salad or salad wrap for dinner. Nothing else. I'm actually comfortable with this one. It some ways it makes meal planning much easier to have this more uniform approach.
3. I had both a full physical and dentist appointment in the month of May. I am putting this as a positive because I think taking care of the body promotes a feeling of well-being.
4. I didn't let myself go too crazy with eating on Memorial Day weekend. I did turkey sloppy joes instead of BBQ. I picked up light Pringles instead of the regular potato chips. And so on. I'll try to do the same thing for 4th of July- finding a slightly healthier alternative in my food options.
Now, let's skip over the negative and pretend I was a saint this month... just kidding!
1. I haven't been able to establish a normal exercise routine that works with both my lifestyle and schedule. Or I've been too lazy or occupied with other things. You decide.
2. Um, what is up all the delicious food always brought in at the workplace? Am I really supposed to resist chocolate brownies or garlic breadsticks or all the other tempting food that surround me? Please, someone, just bring in carrots! No more work place binging!
3. I feel I should be 100 times more committed to starting a healthier lifestyle but I'm not. I would rather relax in my down-time... I would rather meet friends for eating out than cook up asparagus at home... I would rather read a book than do 30 Day Shred... but I have goals in mind for June and those goals do not require more couch surfing.
Until next time,
Rachel
Monday, May 21, 2012
On Style
Hello Rachel,
I think even the skinniest people in the world have days when they just feel "FAT," some people are just better at ignoring these times than other people. they have different ways of dealing with them. It sounds like I'm a lot like you in the sense that I get out the baggy t-shirts, sweatshirts and baggy bottoms when this happens.
I realized the other day, that my body and how I feel about it have determined my style. There are certain parts of my body I try to hide. I too have made up "rules," for myself. For example, I have short legs in proportion to my torso, so I always try to pick out shoes with some elevation to them or since I have a very curvy body I try to pick out clothing that will stretch and curve with it, instead of just hanging off me.
But I understand how you feel, because even though I've created these rules and dress in a manor that makes me feel better about my body, every now and then I will see someone walk by and I will think that would totally be my style if a style like that would look good on me.
Since you know me, you know I LOVE dresses, LOVE them. I especially love wearing sundresses in the summer time...but a lot of sundresses have an empress cut to them. This means there is a certain section of material that my boobs are supposed to fit into and be placed perfectly.
Here are some examples:
I think even the skinniest people in the world have days when they just feel "FAT," some people are just better at ignoring these times than other people. they have different ways of dealing with them. It sounds like I'm a lot like you in the sense that I get out the baggy t-shirts, sweatshirts and baggy bottoms when this happens.
I realized the other day, that my body and how I feel about it have determined my style. There are certain parts of my body I try to hide. I too have made up "rules," for myself. For example, I have short legs in proportion to my torso, so I always try to pick out shoes with some elevation to them or since I have a very curvy body I try to pick out clothing that will stretch and curve with it, instead of just hanging off me.
But I understand how you feel, because even though I've created these rules and dress in a manor that makes me feel better about my body, every now and then I will see someone walk by and I will think that would totally be my style if a style like that would look good on me.
Since you know me, you know I LOVE dresses, LOVE them. I especially love wearing sundresses in the summer time...but a lot of sundresses have an empress cut to them. This means there is a certain section of material that my boobs are supposed to fit into and be placed perfectly.
Here are some examples:
I would feel so carefree and beautiful in the second one, if only my busty self would ever fit into something like that. I do usually end up finding some dresses that make me feel beautiful, but my choices are very limited. Sometimes I will go dress shopping and only one dress will be available that my body MIGHT be able to squeeze into...and that's how I became more of a skirt girl.Many of the dresses I find are made of a stiff material and darker colors. Like this:
They are fine...but see how it's not blowing in the wind like the yellow one up there. ;) lol.
If you are wondering if dresses don't fit me, then why don't I just shop in the plus size section or go to a store for bigger girls...the answer is that those dresses don't fit me either! They are too big in the stomach and I find that my boobs still don't usually fit in the PLUS size empress cut dresses that blow in the wind. When I was prom dress shopping in high school. I remember looking at dresses online and they never had equally proportioned dress for bustier girls. If they dress got ten inches bigger in the bust it got 20inches bigger in the rear! Um...no actually my bust and rear are about the same...thank you.
Another style that I LOVE dearly, but have written myself as not being able to wear are these flowing empress cut blouses.
I walked past a girl with a model-like body wearing a blouse similar to the one in the picture with jeans, flip flops and a long necklace and I thought...if only I had a skinnier body I would probably dress like that, but since I'm bigger even if I did the style just wouldn't look the same on someone busty.
So in conclusion, this post had made me realize that I need to start my own clothing line for busty women. NOT plus size women, but women who have a proportioned body with curves that just happen to have bigger curves and be more curvy than the skinny minis out there.
I could have Joan from Mad Men aka Christina Hendricks be my spokes person, since she is as bold as I would like the clothing line to be.
Dare to dream, right? I don't know how popular this clothing line would be, but at least there are a few women out there who might appreciate it.
Sincerely,
Angela- The world's newest clothing designer for curvy women....well maybe someday, it's just kinda joke for now.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
F is for Fat

Knotted shoulder cover-up by Gap
Hello Angela,
I have a post in mind on cute cover-ups for the pool/beach but you will have to wait for it. For now, I want to discuss how I am feeling today. And that feeling is... fat.
Can "fat" be a feeling? Oh, yes, of course it can! It happens when the weather reaches 80 degrees, humidity is high, the A/C hasn't switched over in your building and suddenly you find yourself sweating. Like a pig. Like Britney in her "Slave 4 U" music video. You just feel fat. At least, this is what I was feeling as sweat dripped off me in a very non-sexy, non-elegant, gross kinda way.
Today I met up with my plus-size friend, Chloe, for lunch. Unlike myself, she appeared cool and confident. I looked closer. Well, unlike myself Chloe was dressed in a stylish tank top. She doesn't have perfectly toned and trim arms but she doesn't care or maybe she does care but she doesn't let that stop her. Meanwhile, I rarely feel comfortable wearing tank tops in public. I would feel confident- if I had the upper arms of a slender goddess. Well, Chloe does not but she doesn't let that stop her either.
Chloe also keeps her hair in a short, pixie cut (similar to here). Obviously, such a haircut is ideal for staying cool. Compare this to my hair which often feels like a wild lion's mane, only 20 times thicker. But would I ever chop off my long locks to be cool and fab like Chloe? Of course not! For me, I often feel like my hair is my security blanket, my shield. I also have this horrible belief that in order to have short hair you need to also be an incredibly thin person to pull it off. And, you know what, I often find incredibly slim women are the ones going short and staying with it. Hey, I am just saying...
As our lunch date winded down I began to seriously reconsider my body image hang ups. For one, should I be sweaty and uncomfortable all Summer because I make up rules like "no tank tops" and "you have to be skinny to have short hair"? And why can't I do things with more freedom when Chloe (who is not some size 4) can do as she pleases- and get away with it?
I know there might come a day when I am skinnier, healthier, stronger and all the things I so desire. However, in the meantime I should find ways to be happy and less sweaty too.
Waiting for the A/C to Turn On,
Rachel
Tuesday, May 8, 2012
Tricky Buggers
Dear Rachel,
Yes, bathing suits are tricky buggers. I try to avoid shopping for them and wear the suit from last year as many years in a row as possible. Last year, while I still fit into my bathing suit, I realized I had it for a really long time...and it was just too old fashioned and out of style- it was a Tankini with a straight tight skirt....I can't even find a sample picture online anymore...all the skirts I see now flare out or have a ruffle...
That's actually what triggered the bathing suit shopping last year...I'm a sucker for ruffles...
Now my biggest challenge with bathing suit shopping is my biggest challenge with dresses, shirts and just about any article of clothing that has to go on the upper half of my body...my boobs. If I find a bathing big enough to cover my chest than usually the stomach will also be huge which does not make good swimming attire. Once, as a teenager when I went on a long-hours-bathing-suit-shopping-trip with my mom we discussed the possibility of having a bathing suit altered to fit me. Then, we realized that all the bathing suits that big didn't have pretty patterns.
However, last year I found two great fitting suits and get this...I actually bought a two piece with a bikini-like top! I was a little self-conscious about the decision and before purchasing it I brought three friends who I knew would be brutally honest with me on whether I could actually get away with wearing it without disgusting everyone around me. All of them agreed that it looked fine...even GOOD on me. I was going to brave and post the picture I took of myself in it last year, but unfortunately I can't find it. This is the basic idea though:
Yes, bathing suits are tricky buggers. I try to avoid shopping for them and wear the suit from last year as many years in a row as possible. Last year, while I still fit into my bathing suit, I realized I had it for a really long time...and it was just too old fashioned and out of style- it was a Tankini with a straight tight skirt....I can't even find a sample picture online anymore...all the skirts I see now flare out or have a ruffle...
That's actually what triggered the bathing suit shopping last year...I'm a sucker for ruffles...
Now my biggest challenge with bathing suit shopping is my biggest challenge with dresses, shirts and just about any article of clothing that has to go on the upper half of my body...my boobs. If I find a bathing big enough to cover my chest than usually the stomach will also be huge which does not make good swimming attire. Once, as a teenager when I went on a long-hours-bathing-suit-shopping-trip with my mom we discussed the possibility of having a bathing suit altered to fit me. Then, we realized that all the bathing suits that big didn't have pretty patterns.
However, last year I found two great fitting suits and get this...I actually bought a two piece with a bikini-like top! I was a little self-conscious about the decision and before purchasing it I brought three friends who I knew would be brutally honest with me on whether I could actually get away with wearing it without disgusting everyone around me. All of them agreed that it looked fine...even GOOD on me. I was going to brave and post the picture I took of myself in it last year, but unfortunately I can't find it. This is the basic idea though:
I don't look as good as the model. I usually pull the bottom of the suit up higher on my stomach, but mine does have polka dots, but you get the idea here, but because this suit is a two piece and I am self-conscious about my body. I'm usually very selective about the people I wear it around and because I am a little afraid of popping out of it, I don't wear it when there is a chance I may be holding a baby in the water.
So the hunt began for a one piece. I thought I would just get a nice cheap traditional pretty one piece...well it turns out I hate my body in one pieces even more than I hated my body in that two piece, but luckily I found a not so traditional one piece that I LOVE. It's a forties style suit I got for cheap online.
I did buy the red because last year they only sold it in red and this really ugly leopard print (this year the suit is back at the store in purple, teal, black and white polka dot...because it got really good feed back last year). I Love this suit for its forties style which is almost a dress but without being obvious about it and the tie in the back. This year before I hit the beach I'm going to buy a fashionable sun hat to go with it.
Anyway that bottom line is I'm glad I found these suits last year. I can't stop wishing I fit into teeny weeny bikinis, but maybe my day for that will still come.
Relieved to not have to bathing suit shop this year,
Angela
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Itsy Bitsy Teeny Weeny Yellow Polka Dot Bikini
Dear Angela,
You made it through finals week. Let the memory of bad eating fade away. Now is the time to pat yourself on the back because you made it. Celebrate this moment. Pull out the celebratory fruit salad and veggies! One more semester is complete.
Today it reached well into the 80's. Forget any thoughts of Spring you might have had. I feel we have switched to Summer in full force. Let's see, I need to shave my legs. I need to go find sunscreen. Oh wait, I also need to find last year's swimsuit and figure out if I need to do any new bathing suit shopping. IT IS THAT TIME OF YEAR. LET THEDREADED BATHING SUIT SHOPPING WARS BEGIN!
(Caps lock for dramatic effect, ya'll. Otherwise, how would you take me seriously?)
Before I go further I want to share something refreshingly positive on this topic. Go to this entry by blogger Gabifresh. This gorgeous gal proves that you don't need to be a size zero in order to look fab at the pool. She looks amazing and like her, I am smitten with the retro look. How can you not be? Is it even possible?
For my body and personal style I ignore the bikini, the hipkini, the monokini, anything with the word "Brazilian" in it, or anything that looks like flimsy patches of fabric that are falling off the body. I also avoid doing dances for Terry Richardson in a tiny bikini because that is simply gross. Kate Upton, go talk to your mother.
The swimsuits I do favor tend to be the one-piece and tankini style. I also love suit bottoms that are adorable skirts, or a fun cover-up after a long swim. For me, it is all about comfort at the pool (or beach, ocean, what-have-you). This doesn't mean I want to look boring or don't want to show off any skin. Even at the pool I want to look as cute as ever.
In this post I have gathered my favorite bathing suits of the season. I feel that many of these picks are also great for gals who want more coverage in a swimsuit. Here are my top picks:

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My favorite trend right now is the retro pin-up style bathing suit. Just throw in the polka dots and I can die a happy girl. Of course, I am starting to wonder if everyone at the pool this Summer is also going to be wearing some version of this and it will end up looking a bit obnoxious.
If I want to be safe, I go with black. Black is the most slimming color of all and a classic. You really can't go wrong with black.
Another tip: when trying on a swimsuit make sure to sit down in it and lean over in it. I perform these tests in order to see how the suit moves while on the body.
After some searching I discovered that Spanx also makes bathing suits. This one is their most popular. Has anyone ever worn a Spanx brand bathing suit? Any comments on how it worked out? What about comfort?
In my next post I hope to feature my favorite cover-ups for the Summer.
Until next time,
Rachel
You made it through finals week. Let the memory of bad eating fade away. Now is the time to pat yourself on the back because you made it. Celebrate this moment. Pull out the celebratory fruit salad and veggies! One more semester is complete.
Today it reached well into the 80's. Forget any thoughts of Spring you might have had. I feel we have switched to Summer in full force. Let's see, I need to shave my legs. I need to go find sunscreen. Oh wait, I also need to find last year's swimsuit and figure out if I need to do any new bathing suit shopping. IT IS THAT TIME OF YEAR. LET THE
(Caps lock for dramatic effect, ya'll. Otherwise, how would you take me seriously?)
Before I go further I want to share something refreshingly positive on this topic. Go to this entry by blogger Gabifresh. This gorgeous gal proves that you don't need to be a size zero in order to look fab at the pool. She looks amazing and like her, I am smitten with the retro look. How can you not be? Is it even possible?
For my body and personal style I ignore the bikini, the hipkini, the monokini, anything with the word "Brazilian" in it, or anything that looks like flimsy patches of fabric that are falling off the body. I also avoid doing dances for Terry Richardson in a tiny bikini because that is simply gross. Kate Upton, go talk to your mother.
The swimsuits I do favor tend to be the one-piece and tankini style. I also love suit bottoms that are adorable skirts, or a fun cover-up after a long swim. For me, it is all about comfort at the pool (or beach, ocean, what-have-you). This doesn't mean I want to look boring or don't want to show off any skin. Even at the pool I want to look as cute as ever.
In this post I have gathered my favorite bathing suits of the season. I feel that many of these picks are also great for gals who want more coverage in a swimsuit. Here are my top picks:

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My favorite trend right now is the retro pin-up style bathing suit. Just throw in the polka dots and I can die a happy girl. Of course, I am starting to wonder if everyone at the pool this Summer is also going to be wearing some version of this and it will end up looking a bit obnoxious.
If I want to be safe, I go with black. Black is the most slimming color of all and a classic. You really can't go wrong with black.
Another tip: when trying on a swimsuit make sure to sit down in it and lean over in it. I perform these tests in order to see how the suit moves while on the body.
After some searching I discovered that Spanx also makes bathing suits. This one is their most popular. Has anyone ever worn a Spanx brand bathing suit? Any comments on how it worked out? What about comfort?
In my next post I hope to feature my favorite cover-ups for the Summer.
Until next time,
Rachel
Monday, April 30, 2012
The Horror of Finals Week
Dear Rachel,
Thank you for approving my morning lattes and I'm glad that you are pretty much sticking to your lack-of-latte goal.
This semester I took a class from Hell...like seriously you know I would not have used the word Hell if I didn't really think that's where it came from. Not that I didn't do everything I could, it still isn't over as I await my grade, because God forbid I didn't pass my final and I have to do it all over again! Over the semester I accumulated not just one but two overflowing 1 1/2" binders full of notes and it was one of those classes where there is a midterm worth 50% and a final worth 50% of which everything you learned up until that point is tested....I keep looking back and thinking of things I made a mistake on...answers I knew but wrote wrong...AHHHH! Professor, please post my grade soon and reader please help me pray that I passed.
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So, what does this have to do with my eating habits...my new healthy lifestyle....the answer is...nothing good.
The week before my final I dropped everything to study...everything including exercise time :( I also was staying up until 2:00, 3:00 and the nights before the exam 4-5 am, while still getting to work by 9:00 am the next day. I pulled out the extremes in order to do this. I'm not as young as I used to be and pulling all nighters, it takes extreme amounts of caffeine...three servings of it a day when I'm not used to any, but that's not the worst part. The worst part are the rewards I have to give myself to keep studying and the time I don't have to prepare healthy food.
Not only did I eat carry outs and fast food all week long, but because I was stressed out my appetite for healthy food sucked and I kept eating comfort food. My favorite comfort foods include french fries, hamburgers, lots and lots of bread and Oreos in milk. So I would be studying, studying studying, running through those flashcards, reading and re-reading notes, doing practice exercises and I'd grab an Oreo from the bag dip it in milk and sink my teeth into it...then I'd reach for another...and another...and ANOTHER. Complete and ultimate horror is what I feel when I look at my body in the mirror right now.
Finals week, I hate you, how could you do this to me? How could I have not paid attention to my eating habits all week like that? I'm not even going to get on the scale to see the damage
To make up for it, I'm going to try to do two 30-minute work-outs a day for a while, one in the morning and one in the evening. Hopefully, I will at least feel a little better about myself in a few weeks.
UGH,
Angela
Thank you for approving my morning lattes and I'm glad that you are pretty much sticking to your lack-of-latte goal.
This semester I took a class from Hell...like seriously you know I would not have used the word Hell if I didn't really think that's where it came from. Not that I didn't do everything I could, it still isn't over as I await my grade, because God forbid I didn't pass my final and I have to do it all over again! Over the semester I accumulated not just one but two overflowing 1 1/2" binders full of notes and it was one of those classes where there is a midterm worth 50% and a final worth 50% of which everything you learned up until that point is tested....I keep looking back and thinking of things I made a mistake on...answers I knew but wrote wrong...AHHHH! Professor, please post my grade soon and reader please help me pray that I passed.
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So, what does this have to do with my eating habits...my new healthy lifestyle....the answer is...nothing good.
The week before my final I dropped everything to study...everything including exercise time :( I also was staying up until 2:00, 3:00 and the nights before the exam 4-5 am, while still getting to work by 9:00 am the next day. I pulled out the extremes in order to do this. I'm not as young as I used to be and pulling all nighters, it takes extreme amounts of caffeine...three servings of it a day when I'm not used to any, but that's not the worst part. The worst part are the rewards I have to give myself to keep studying and the time I don't have to prepare healthy food.
Not only did I eat carry outs and fast food all week long, but because I was stressed out my appetite for healthy food sucked and I kept eating comfort food. My favorite comfort foods include french fries, hamburgers, lots and lots of bread and Oreos in milk. So I would be studying, studying studying, running through those flashcards, reading and re-reading notes, doing practice exercises and I'd grab an Oreo from the bag dip it in milk and sink my teeth into it...then I'd reach for another...and another...and ANOTHER. Complete and ultimate horror is what I feel when I look at my body in the mirror right now.
Finals week, I hate you, how could you do this to me? How could I have not paid attention to my eating habits all week like that? I'm not even going to get on the scale to see the damage
To make up for it, I'm going to try to do two 30-minute work-outs a day for a while, one in the morning and one in the evening. Hopefully, I will at least feel a little better about myself in a few weeks.
UGH,
Angela
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Wherein I Act Like an Eating Expert
Dear Angela,
I am no expert on what you should and absolutely should NOT be putting into your body. I tend to wait for my BFF Gwyneth to tell me what I need to be eating via Goop. But because this topic has not been covered by her newsletters (as of April 2012, I am certain she will address it soon) I will go ahead and give my opinion on your skim tea latte drinking habits.
Yes, I approve.
You can go on drinking your skim tea lattes in peace. You have my blessing. Carry on. Just don't go too crazy and start substituting generic Kroger brand tea as opposed to quality tea, like that of Tazo. Now, THAT, would be shameful. To the world of tea, at least.
Also, if you get bored with your current combination I recommend doing an iced tea with these amazing teas from Zhena's Gypsy Tea. I recently picked up one of their tropical blends called Peach Daiquiri and I must say, it is divine. I plan on drinking this on hot summer days from my balcony rocking chair, or perhaps by the pool. I am so excited about this tea I plan on trying other tropical blends next. A Coconut Rum tea maybe? And no, the company is not asking me to write this. I just love the product.
As for my own journeypretending to get healthy but failing:
I continue to no longer drink my daily lattes. I did go on a trip about a week ago where I allowed myself to have a few (a kind of break, I mean I was on vacation) but then I went back to just no longer having it as part of my day. And I've been fine. The only time I miss it is if I am more sleep deprived than usual. Otherwise, not a big deal. If I continue to no longer have my lattes then by June 2012 I can reward myself. (In case you missed it, read this entry here.) Yes, these babies will be mine:

Pictured: Tom's Fuchsia Crochet Women's Classics
And they will be the fanciest red elf shoes in the land...
There are a few other changes I've been working on to my diet. Here they are in organized form:
Less meat in my diet.
A new focus on what I am eating for my breakfast. This is the first meal of the day and in many ways determines the course of the entire day.
Less milk, cheese, dairy.
Salads for dinner. This is where I have to be careful because I tend to LOVE salads with dressing, a ton of toppings, rich CHEESE, or bacon mixed in (basically, all the good stuff).
Less bread in general.
Until next time,
Rachel
I am no expert on what you should and absolutely should NOT be putting into your body. I tend to wait for my BFF Gwyneth to tell me what I need to be eating via Goop. But because this topic has not been covered by her newsletters (as of April 2012, I am certain she will address it soon) I will go ahead and give my opinion on your skim tea latte drinking habits.
Yes, I approve.
You can go on drinking your skim tea lattes in peace. You have my blessing. Carry on. Just don't go too crazy and start substituting generic Kroger brand tea as opposed to quality tea, like that of Tazo. Now, THAT, would be shameful. To the world of tea, at least.
Also, if you get bored with your current combination I recommend doing an iced tea with these amazing teas from Zhena's Gypsy Tea. I recently picked up one of their tropical blends called Peach Daiquiri and I must say, it is divine. I plan on drinking this on hot summer days from my balcony rocking chair, or perhaps by the pool. I am so excited about this tea I plan on trying other tropical blends next. A Coconut Rum tea maybe? And no, the company is not asking me to write this. I just love the product.
As for my own journey
I continue to no longer drink my daily lattes. I did go on a trip about a week ago where I allowed myself to have a few (a kind of break, I mean I was on vacation) but then I went back to just no longer having it as part of my day. And I've been fine. The only time I miss it is if I am more sleep deprived than usual. Otherwise, not a big deal. If I continue to no longer have my lattes then by June 2012 I can reward myself. (In case you missed it, read this entry here.) Yes, these babies will be mine:

Pictured: Tom's Fuchsia Crochet Women's Classics
And they will be the fanciest red elf shoes in the land...
There are a few other changes I've been working on to my diet. Here they are in organized form:
Until next time,
Rachel
Sunday, April 15, 2012
What I've been doing the past couple of mornings....
Dear Rachel,
Lately, circumstances (such as upcoming finals, working full-time, while trying to maintain a workout schedule and enjoy the newly nice weather) in my life have me waking up earlier and staying up later. I enjoy the productive feeling, but I am much sleepier than usual.
So one morning I woke up craving a Chai tea latte, which I only buy on occasion and didn't currently have on hand. I made a deal with myself that I can only stop at Starbucks for breakfast on morning I go to the gym for my reward, but I had already slept too late for that. Besides, a tall Chai Latte at Starbucks with soy milk that I usually is over 200 calories (and I'm pretty sure closer to 300 calories) alone.
But how was I supposed to be motivated to get out of bed with nothing that would wake me up faster?
What do I have in the house? I asked myself.
The answer was Tazo Awake black tea. Only 2 calories a tea bag.
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To be completely honest, I don't really like black tea. I bought it to make ice tea with. Ice tea which I either add lemonade or lots of lemon too and this was a COLD morning. Ice tea did not sound great and putting pure lemon citrus in my stomach that early also seemed like a BAD idea. So what could I do with black tea that would wake me up?
That's when I discovered black tea lattes. It sounds so obvious now that I'm writing about it. I mean people add milk or cream to their tea all the time, but this is a little more than just adding milk or cream.
I first make a cup of black tea, then I pour about a half glass of skim milk in my to-go coffee thermos or choice that morning. I pour the tea on top of the skim milk and wahla! Black tea latte. Sometimes I will add the tiniest drop of honey in there too.
Now I know what you're thinking and I can't help but ask myself the same question...is this really good for me? Better for me than a latte I would pick up at Starbucks? I'm not really a health expert, but here is my logic as to why I think it is:
What is your take on this Rachel? Was it incredibly mean of me to blog about my new found latte, just as you set a goal to give yours up? Would you even count this as a latte? I admit I might be calling it that because it makes it taste better....
Sincerely,
Angela
Lately, circumstances (such as upcoming finals, working full-time, while trying to maintain a workout schedule and enjoy the newly nice weather) in my life have me waking up earlier and staying up later. I enjoy the productive feeling, but I am much sleepier than usual.
So one morning I woke up craving a Chai tea latte, which I only buy on occasion and didn't currently have on hand. I made a deal with myself that I can only stop at Starbucks for breakfast on morning I go to the gym for my reward, but I had already slept too late for that. Besides, a tall Chai Latte at Starbucks with soy milk that I usually is over 200 calories (and I'm pretty sure closer to 300 calories) alone.
But how was I supposed to be motivated to get out of bed with nothing that would wake me up faster?
What do I have in the house? I asked myself.
The answer was Tazo Awake black tea. Only 2 calories a tea bag.
Image Source
To be completely honest, I don't really like black tea. I bought it to make ice tea with. Ice tea which I either add lemonade or lots of lemon too and this was a COLD morning. Ice tea did not sound great and putting pure lemon citrus in my stomach that early also seemed like a BAD idea. So what could I do with black tea that would wake me up?
That's when I discovered black tea lattes. It sounds so obvious now that I'm writing about it. I mean people add milk or cream to their tea all the time, but this is a little more than just adding milk or cream.
I first make a cup of black tea, then I pour about a half glass of skim milk in my to-go coffee thermos or choice that morning. I pour the tea on top of the skim milk and wahla! Black tea latte. Sometimes I will add the tiniest drop of honey in there too.
Now I know what you're thinking and I can't help but ask myself the same question...is this really good for me? Better for me than a latte I would pick up at Starbucks? I'm not really a health expert, but here is my logic as to why I think it is:
- The Black Tea has only 2 calories, meaning technically when I don't add honey the only calories besides those 2 in this drink are in the skim milk, which at most I probably use about 100 calories worth of milk..cutting the calories more than in half.
- It does not make my heart race and then crash like espresso would, nor does it contain those fatty-but I admit sweet and delicious- syrups and sauces, meaning this is not only better for you than a Chai tea latte but any latte.
What is your take on this Rachel? Was it incredibly mean of me to blog about my new found latte, just as you set a goal to give yours up? Would you even count this as a latte? I admit I might be calling it that because it makes it taste better....
Sincerely,
Angela
Monday, April 9, 2012
Holidays with a Splash of Indulgence
Hello Angela,
It has been about two weeks since I gave up my daily lattes. I've had moments of craving. I've had moments of being tired and wanting one. Oh, and headaches have followed. But mostly it has actually been easy to make this one change. So I am in the middle of asking myself: Is it enough? Granted, the plan is to start with one change and then expand it to other areas.
I identity with your fondness for sweets in its many sneaky but delicious forms. I feel a little guilty writing now because Easter just passed and like Halloween it is a holiday which screams: SUGAR, and: CANDY, CANDY, CANDY.
This year I discovered these irresistible delights:

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Unlike a normal Cadbury Creme egg you can pop one in your mouth and continue. Less mess, it goes down faster, you still have all the deliciousness of the original. It is so simple to follow one with a second and a third... and to feels so natural to not stop at one but to continue.
I gave one to a coworker and he immediately returned to me to ask, "Okay, do you have any more? I need another." He had the look of a junkie trying to get his latest fix. Yes, they are just that addictive. I was actually pleased to witness someone else so openly addicted to these things.
I have always felt for holidays everyone should be allowed a little touch of indulgence. But if you are trying to make new, healthier habits then don't holidays just work against all planning and set you back further? Would it be better to ignore the Easter candy left on your desk, the 4th of July Summer BBQ's or the visions of sugar plums at Christmas? It seems that US holidays leave little room for healthy eating and living.
There are many fitness blogs on the Internet run by women where the author has started at a high weight but then over the span of time she drops to a size two and the entire blog now consists of, "Look at me in my bikini! Look at me smiling and looking skinny! I did it! Hooray! Don't you wish you could be skinny and sexy and happy like me! I traded bacon for lettuce and now my life is perfection!"
Well, I can say I don't think my blogging here will ever take that same direction (maybe for Angela it will). I feel I am moving at a snail's pace.
Where am I going?
Good question.
Until next time,
Rachel
It has been about two weeks since I gave up my daily lattes. I've had moments of craving. I've had moments of being tired and wanting one. Oh, and headaches have followed. But mostly it has actually been easy to make this one change. So I am in the middle of asking myself: Is it enough? Granted, the plan is to start with one change and then expand it to other areas.
I identity with your fondness for sweets in its many sneaky but delicious forms. I feel a little guilty writing now because Easter just passed and like Halloween it is a holiday which screams: SUGAR, and: CANDY, CANDY, CANDY.
This year I discovered these irresistible delights:
(Image source)
Unlike a normal Cadbury Creme egg you can pop one in your mouth and continue. Less mess, it goes down faster, you still have all the deliciousness of the original. It is so simple to follow one with a second and a third... and to feels so natural to not stop at one but to continue.
I gave one to a coworker and he immediately returned to me to ask, "Okay, do you have any more? I need another." He had the look of a junkie trying to get his latest fix. Yes, they are just that addictive. I was actually pleased to witness someone else so openly addicted to these things.
I have always felt for holidays everyone should be allowed a little touch of indulgence. But if you are trying to make new, healthier habits then don't holidays just work against all planning and set you back further? Would it be better to ignore the Easter candy left on your desk, the 4th of July Summer BBQ's or the visions of sugar plums at Christmas? It seems that US holidays leave little room for healthy eating and living.
There are many fitness blogs on the Internet run by women where the author has started at a high weight but then over the span of time she drops to a size two and the entire blog now consists of, "Look at me in my bikini! Look at me smiling and looking skinny! I did it! Hooray! Don't you wish you could be skinny and sexy and happy like me! I traded bacon for lettuce and now my life is perfection!"
Well, I can say I don't think my blogging here will ever take that same direction (maybe for Angela it will). I feel I am moving at a snail's pace.
Where am I going?
Good question.
Until next time,
Rachel
Saturday, April 7, 2012
My Sweet Weakness
Dear Rachel,
Your daily lattes! Oh wow! My huge congratulations to you and good luck on this goal I know how important the lattes are to you. I need to think of a goal with that kind of reward at the end of it...but I'm blanking on what my reward can be...I do however know what I should give up...my daily sweets!
I have the worst sweets addiction ever! I usually cave and get something chocolate once a day! and that's after resisting it the ten other times I wanted it each day. It's so bad I don't even keep chocolate in my apartment because I know it won't last.
I try to buy "healthy" (meaning somewhat better for you, but not completely) substitutes like frozen yogurt to satisfy my sweet cravings...but I end up going out and getting something instead of eating the frozen yogurt most of the time!
You know you have an addiction when...you travel outside the frickin' house late at night because you just NEED that McFlurry or cold stone or cupcake (from the nifty little cupcake shops popping up all over now) or a whole entire chocolate pie!
So when I think up a reward that is certainly what I should give up in order to get it. In the meantime here are some links that are SUPPOSED to help people resist sweets:
13 ways to stop sugar cravings: http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/13-ways-to-fight-sugar-cravings
Sugar Addiction Escape Plan: http://www.firstourselves.org/10-steps-to-control-sugar-cravings/
For those that lack the motivation:
78 reasons to avoid sugar: http://www.healthchecksystems.com/Health_Reasons_to_Avoid_Sugar.htm
Any suggestions for a reward for a person like me on a budget? Can't wait to hear how the latte thing is going.
Sincerely,
Angela
Your daily lattes! Oh wow! My huge congratulations to you and good luck on this goal I know how important the lattes are to you. I need to think of a goal with that kind of reward at the end of it...but I'm blanking on what my reward can be...I do however know what I should give up...my daily sweets!
I have the worst sweets addiction ever! I usually cave and get something chocolate once a day! and that's after resisting it the ten other times I wanted it each day. It's so bad I don't even keep chocolate in my apartment because I know it won't last.
I try to buy "healthy" (meaning somewhat better for you, but not completely) substitutes like frozen yogurt to satisfy my sweet cravings...but I end up going out and getting something instead of eating the frozen yogurt most of the time!
You know you have an addiction when...you travel outside the frickin' house late at night because you just NEED that McFlurry or cold stone or cupcake (from the nifty little cupcake shops popping up all over now) or a whole entire chocolate pie!
So when I think up a reward that is certainly what I should give up in order to get it. In the meantime here are some links that are SUPPOSED to help people resist sweets:
13 ways to stop sugar cravings: http://www.webmd.com/diet/features/13-ways-to-fight-sugar-cravings
Sugar Addiction Escape Plan: http://www.firstourselves.org/10-steps-to-control-sugar-cravings/
For those that lack the motivation:
78 reasons to avoid sugar: http://www.healthchecksystems.com/Health_Reasons_to_Avoid_Sugar.htm
Any suggestions for a reward for a person like me on a budget? Can't wait to hear how the latte thing is going.
Sincerely,
Angela
Friday, March 30, 2012
The Great Tom's Latte Challenge of 2012
Dear Angela,
I agree, small changes can make a difference. It is all about adjusting your eating/lifestyle habits so that over time you have developed a new approach to living. I know readers of this blog can't see actual photos here but you have been looking thinner lately. And beautiful. And happy, which is far more meaningful than the numbers on a scale.
In the past week I have made a rather shocking lifestyle change. I gave up... my daily lattes. Now, a bit of back story here: I was having about one latte a day. Every day. Sometimes I would make them at home courtesy of the amazing home espresso machine (thank you Chris!). Sometimes I would go through Starbucks or a hip indie cafe. It became a habit, a great love but nothing about it said "healthy lifestyle." I have replaced it with drinking iced tea instead or the occasional skim Chai. My goal is to keep this up until my birthday and if I can do this I will treat myself to a reward...

Pictured: Tom's Fuchsia Crochet Women's Classics
Please note: For every pair of Tom's you purchase a second pair of shoes is given to a child in need. This is another reason to heart Tom's. No, they are not paying me to say this. I just like the product.
Now, I could just go out and spend the $58 to get this pair myself without any kind of sacrifice or planning. However, where is the fun in that? Would I even appreciate the shoes in the same way? I think not! So, for me I am giving up a naughty habit, giving myself one pair of shoes that says "I made it" and buying a second pair of shoes for a child in need. And I really hope that child in need receives a pair of Tiny Tom's because nothing is more adorable. I also get the great pleasure of BLOGGING ABOUT IT HERE. So, yes, I will keep the Internet updated as I take on this great endeavor. While some bloggers might write about reaching the top of Kilimanjaro, I will write of no longer having a daily latte...
I realize some people may turn up their nose at the idea of using a reward system for healthy changes. Well, good for those kind of people. I am actually a fan of this technique because it makes it into a kind of game, a challenge, and if I start to think about getting my usual latte then I can visualize these waiting for me in a size eight:

In the future I may even expand my system of rewards to other areas. Food will never be the reward but instead maybe a new outfit, a glitzy watch, or maybe something like a small vacation. I will have to brainstorm further.
Until next time,
Rachel
I agree, small changes can make a difference. It is all about adjusting your eating/lifestyle habits so that over time you have developed a new approach to living. I know readers of this blog can't see actual photos here but you have been looking thinner lately. And beautiful. And happy, which is far more meaningful than the numbers on a scale.
In the past week I have made a rather shocking lifestyle change. I gave up... my daily lattes. Now, a bit of back story here: I was having about one latte a day. Every day. Sometimes I would make them at home courtesy of the amazing home espresso machine (thank you Chris!). Sometimes I would go through Starbucks or a hip indie cafe. It became a habit, a great love but nothing about it said "healthy lifestyle." I have replaced it with drinking iced tea instead or the occasional skim Chai. My goal is to keep this up until my birthday and if I can do this I will treat myself to a reward...

Pictured: Tom's Fuchsia Crochet Women's Classics
Please note: For every pair of Tom's you purchase a second pair of shoes is given to a child in need. This is another reason to heart Tom's. No, they are not paying me to say this. I just like the product.
Now, I could just go out and spend the $58 to get this pair myself without any kind of sacrifice or planning. However, where is the fun in that? Would I even appreciate the shoes in the same way? I think not! So, for me I am giving up a naughty habit, giving myself one pair of shoes that says "I made it" and buying a second pair of shoes for a child in need. And I really hope that child in need receives a pair of Tiny Tom's because nothing is more adorable. I also get the great pleasure of BLOGGING ABOUT IT HERE. So, yes, I will keep the Internet updated as I take on this great endeavor. While some bloggers might write about reaching the top of Kilimanjaro, I will write of no longer having a daily latte...
I realize some people may turn up their nose at the idea of using a reward system for healthy changes. Well, good for those kind of people. I am actually a fan of this technique because it makes it into a kind of game, a challenge, and if I start to think about getting my usual latte then I can visualize these waiting for me in a size eight:

In the future I may even expand my system of rewards to other areas. Food will never be the reward but instead maybe a new outfit, a glitzy watch, or maybe something like a small vacation. I will have to brainstorm further.
Until next time,
Rachel
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Small Changes...Big Difference?
Dear Rachel,
I feel as though I've fallen off track a little bit...but also I feel great. By falling off track, I almost mean literally, I have not been to the gym nor weighed myself in about a week or more...I don't know I haven't been keeping track.
It's because the weather has affected me as well! As the sun is now shining in the evening of the new found spring, I find myself driving right past the dreary gym on my way home from work. I really just don't want to spend time in there...
Instead, I will text a friend to go for a walk and the results are beautiful. I've been to more parks and on more trails this year than I've made it to in the past two years. One had like a million garden snakes...gross...but adventurous at the same time.
It was also getting a little too hot for soup for dinner every night and I still can't bring myself to bring salads for lunch anymore after I did it everyday for a while...bleh so sick of them.
So I guess what I'm saying is only the small changes have really stuck...I still drink mostly water, juices with less sugar or unsweetened ice tea, I still watch my portion sizes more than I used too and eat healthier snacks and I still have substituted many of my regular foods at home with healthier Greek yogurt instead of regular, less sugary cereals, more whole grains...no sweets in the house unless they are homemade that kind of thing.
Like I said I haven't been on the scale so I may be completely delusional...but I feel like I look thinner. I have had like three people say so...so I know it's not a big difference, but still its a difference. My jeans seem to be fitting nicer and I'm not as mad at how my clothes look.
All and all I'm pretty happy right now. Maybe I will be happy with what the scale says if I do make my way back into the dreary gym on a rainy day and maybe I will be happy with the result and maybe not, but for right now it seems as though the small changes have made a difference and this healthy lifestyle isn't for nothing after all.
So yes I would say that small changes over a longer period of time DO make a difference...
See ya later,
Angela
I feel as though I've fallen off track a little bit...but also I feel great. By falling off track, I almost mean literally, I have not been to the gym nor weighed myself in about a week or more...I don't know I haven't been keeping track.
It's because the weather has affected me as well! As the sun is now shining in the evening of the new found spring, I find myself driving right past the dreary gym on my way home from work. I really just don't want to spend time in there...
Instead, I will text a friend to go for a walk and the results are beautiful. I've been to more parks and on more trails this year than I've made it to in the past two years. One had like a million garden snakes...gross...but adventurous at the same time.
It was also getting a little too hot for soup for dinner every night and I still can't bring myself to bring salads for lunch anymore after I did it everyday for a while...bleh so sick of them.
So I guess what I'm saying is only the small changes have really stuck...I still drink mostly water, juices with less sugar or unsweetened ice tea, I still watch my portion sizes more than I used too and eat healthier snacks and I still have substituted many of my regular foods at home with healthier Greek yogurt instead of regular, less sugary cereals, more whole grains...no sweets in the house unless they are homemade that kind of thing.
Like I said I haven't been on the scale so I may be completely delusional...but I feel like I look thinner. I have had like three people say so...so I know it's not a big difference, but still its a difference. My jeans seem to be fitting nicer and I'm not as mad at how my clothes look.
All and all I'm pretty happy right now. Maybe I will be happy with what the scale says if I do make my way back into the dreary gym on a rainy day and maybe I will be happy with the result and maybe not, but for right now it seems as though the small changes have made a difference and this healthy lifestyle isn't for nothing after all.
So yes I would say that small changes over a longer period of time DO make a difference...
See ya later,
Angela
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Spring Changes Everything
Dear Angela,
Spring is here... and with it my mood has improved 100%. I don't know what it is about the sunshine but now I find myself wanting to be outdoors as much as possible. I am not planning on dramatic weight lose to follow YET because my eating habits have not exactly been stellar. I will spare you the details of what foods have been making their way into my body. You don't need that horror. Not right not anyway. HOWEVER, if I keep making it a habit to stay outdoors, if I do get back to making healthier eating choices and resisting old habits... then you might find me wearing this shimmering black number around town sometime soon:

Dress Source
Or not.
Maybe I'll be the girl wearing a cute swim cover up at the pool, or the girl trying out a new flavor of fresh Raspberry ice cream, or the girl pulling on her work dress pants and asking herself, "Wait, are these pants somehow more snug than usual?" God, I hope not!
The only thing I can say is: I am going to keep trying. What a boring, predictable thing to say, I know. But for now it is where I am. I know I have a long way to go.
I have also been collecting links to share. If you are interested continue reading. This is just from my random surfing around the web.
The Shape of a Mother. A website with the goal of showing a woman's post-pregnancy body. Our bodies often change dramatically after having a baby. Meaning, don't bother having a baby. Just kidding!
New Israeli Law Bans Underweight Models In Ads, Undisclosed Airbrushing. Will this be a new trend elsewhere?
Colleagues Who Can Make You Fat. All about the extra calories associated with work life. Damn that coworker who brings in that pan of brownies. Or the one with that amazing recipe for lasagna.
Also, work related: How to Bring Your Lunch to Work: A Guide. I should probably take careful notes from this article. I appreciate Step 8.
Until next time,
Rachel
Spring is here... and with it my mood has improved 100%. I don't know what it is about the sunshine but now I find myself wanting to be outdoors as much as possible. I am not planning on dramatic weight lose to follow YET because my eating habits have not exactly been stellar. I will spare you the details of what foods have been making their way into my body. You don't need that horror. Not right not anyway. HOWEVER, if I keep making it a habit to stay outdoors, if I do get back to making healthier eating choices and resisting old habits... then you might find me wearing this shimmering black number around town sometime soon:

Or not.
Maybe I'll be the girl wearing a cute swim cover up at the pool, or the girl trying out a new flavor of fresh Raspberry ice cream, or the girl pulling on her work dress pants and asking herself, "Wait, are these pants somehow more snug than usual?" God, I hope not!
The only thing I can say is: I am going to keep trying. What a boring, predictable thing to say, I know. But for now it is where I am. I know I have a long way to go.
I have also been collecting links to share. If you are interested continue reading. This is just from my random surfing around the web.
Until next time,
Rachel
Hypertension
Hi Rachel,
As you've been doing better with your healthy lifestyle, I have sloped completely down. It all started with minor things, like getting ranch dressing on a restaurant ordered salad and before I knew it I was craving hot meals from the drive-thru. Then...and I completely blame the warm weather for this...I had ice cream three days in a row :(
I push and pushed myself to be unhealthy and well here I am now...feeling like crap, not just because I went downward on my healthy slope, but because I am a hypertension victim, which up until now was improving.
This morning I woke up with a throbbing headache, fatigue, a tiny bit of dizziness and a tiny bit of weakness. I didn't call into work because I am sincerely hoping this goes away. I am hoping to take how I am feeling in this moment and remember it, so that I don't fall off track again.
On the plus side, due to the warm weather I did do a lot of walking outside. Although, the elliptical at the gym is probably a more intense work out, walking with a friend is great.
I am going grocery shopping TONIGHT. I am going to plan healthy meals and lunches and buy fresh fruit and vegetables. I'm going to start eating oatmeal and fruit for breakfast. I haven't quite figured out lunch yet, but dinner will not have red meat in it and I am not buying anything full of sugar.
I hope I can get back on track....
Trying again,
Angela
As you've been doing better with your healthy lifestyle, I have sloped completely down. It all started with minor things, like getting ranch dressing on a restaurant ordered salad and before I knew it I was craving hot meals from the drive-thru. Then...and I completely blame the warm weather for this...I had ice cream three days in a row :(
I push and pushed myself to be unhealthy and well here I am now...feeling like crap, not just because I went downward on my healthy slope, but because I am a hypertension victim, which up until now was improving.
This morning I woke up with a throbbing headache, fatigue, a tiny bit of dizziness and a tiny bit of weakness. I didn't call into work because I am sincerely hoping this goes away. I am hoping to take how I am feeling in this moment and remember it, so that I don't fall off track again.
On the plus side, due to the warm weather I did do a lot of walking outside. Although, the elliptical at the gym is probably a more intense work out, walking with a friend is great.
I am going grocery shopping TONIGHT. I am going to plan healthy meals and lunches and buy fresh fruit and vegetables. I'm going to start eating oatmeal and fruit for breakfast. I haven't quite figured out lunch yet, but dinner will not have red meat in it and I am not buying anything full of sugar.
I hope I can get back on track....
Trying again,
Angela
Friday, March 16, 2012
Just Add on the Bacon
Dear Angela,
I am sorry to hear that your amazing, nutritious, life-changing salad ended up in the trash! I hope my previous blog entry did not inspire you. Did you maybe consider covering it with bacon or selecting the deep-fried salad options instead?
I am joking, don't worry! Besides, deep-fried salad can only be found in the South. But as for bacon...
I can relate to your feelings on emotional eating. Sometimes I might feel so exhausted or stressed out during the day(!) I find myself going through the Starbucks drive-thru. And on super stressed days I sometimes utter the words, "Venti."
"Venti" translates to: DID YOU REALLY JUST ORDER THAT? I am slightly scared that in some places Starbucks also offers the Trenta. Thank god my city does not. (For readers who are wondering: I always limit the amount of espresso to only shot in my coffee drinks. But as for the milk... well, I love the milk.)
I should also add: drive-thrus are sooo friendly to the life of a new parent. Your baby can be napping peacefully in the backseat and you can just drive and drive and drive- pull over for a Starbucks latte and then keep going. NPR on the radio. Sunglasses on. It is a bit like wrapping yourself in absolute bliss. Of course I do realize the dangers here. And drive-thrus are not exactly designed with a healthier lifestyle in mind.
I also have the fear I might be SPOTTED at a drive-thru, which is a kind of shame I don't think I can just casually brush off. I read today in the New York Times about college students "toning down" their Spring Break wildness because of the fear such photos or videos can be uploaded on Facebook or other social media websites. Well, I have a similar fear: it just involves myself caught with a Venti latte and looking like I should obviously be at the gym instead. I don't exactly know who are these people who might "catch me" either.
Wait, I do know. But all names will remain unidentified on this blog.
I have also found myself using food as a reward system. "You made it through the work week, today is Friday, you deserve a chocolate covered donut for all your efforts! Great job!" But after I devour whatever forbidden tasty treat it is- I never feel a sense of happiness follow. Usually that donut is followed by deep, empty regret. And the question, "Why did I just eat that?" I don't have these feelings when I put something more nutritional into my body. I feel empowered, strong, like I am making all the right choices for my future.
So why the attraction to sugary delights in the first place? I know my BFF Gwen might suggest sugar addiction and there are a million other possible explanations out there. I just know: I might be drawn to that donut or that cupcake or strawberry shortcake or warm rhubarb pie but I do not have those same pulls toward broccoli. I do have an educated mind that sometimes kicks in and says, "Hey, eat this piece of broccoli. Good. Keep going. Don't look back," which makes all the difference.
Until next time,
Rachel
I am sorry to hear that your amazing, nutritious, life-changing salad ended up in the trash! I hope my previous blog entry did not inspire you. Did you maybe consider covering it with bacon or selecting the deep-fried salad options instead?
I am joking, don't worry! Besides, deep-fried salad can only be found in the South. But as for bacon...
I can relate to your feelings on emotional eating. Sometimes I might feel so exhausted or stressed out during the day(!) I find myself going through the Starbucks drive-thru. And on super stressed days I sometimes utter the words, "Venti."
"Venti" translates to: DID YOU REALLY JUST ORDER THAT? I am slightly scared that in some places Starbucks also offers the Trenta. Thank god my city does not. (For readers who are wondering: I always limit the amount of espresso to only shot in my coffee drinks. But as for the milk... well, I love the milk.)
I should also add: drive-thrus are sooo friendly to the life of a new parent. Your baby can be napping peacefully in the backseat and you can just drive and drive and drive- pull over for a Starbucks latte and then keep going. NPR on the radio. Sunglasses on. It is a bit like wrapping yourself in absolute bliss. Of course I do realize the dangers here. And drive-thrus are not exactly designed with a healthier lifestyle in mind.
I also have the fear I might be SPOTTED at a drive-thru, which is a kind of shame I don't think I can just casually brush off. I read today in the New York Times about college students "toning down" their Spring Break wildness because of the fear such photos or videos can be uploaded on Facebook or other social media websites. Well, I have a similar fear: it just involves myself caught with a Venti latte and looking like I should obviously be at the gym instead. I don't exactly know who are these people who might "catch me" either.
Wait, I do know. But all names will remain unidentified on this blog.
I have also found myself using food as a reward system. "You made it through the work week, today is Friday, you deserve a chocolate covered donut for all your efforts! Great job!" But after I devour whatever forbidden tasty treat it is- I never feel a sense of happiness follow. Usually that donut is followed by deep, empty regret. And the question, "Why did I just eat that?" I don't have these feelings when I put something more nutritional into my body. I feel empowered, strong, like I am making all the right choices for my future.
So why the attraction to sugary delights in the first place? I know my BFF Gwen might suggest sugar addiction and there are a million other possible explanations out there. I just know: I might be drawn to that donut or that cupcake or strawberry shortcake or warm rhubarb pie but I do not have those same pulls toward broccoli. I do have an educated mind that sometimes kicks in and says, "Hey, eat this piece of broccoli. Good. Keep going. Don't look back," which makes all the difference.
Until next time,
Rachel
Emotional Eating
Hello Rachel,
I'm so proud of you for setting those goals. They are realistic baby steps to a healthier lifestyle, it's good that you didn't go above and beyond what you think you can do. In fact, I feel like we should celebrate with ice cream sundaes or something...just kidding, but maybe we can go for frozen yogurt again.
I gotta tell you that the same thing happened with me that happened with you and your healthy sandwich. I had to buy lunch today since I still have been to lazy/cheap to grocery shop. There was the glorious smell of pizza and chicken wings presenting themselves as choices...screaming "Pick me! Eat me!" I even walked over to get them and then I found myself unable to do it...I mean I'm unhappy enough with my body.
So instead I picked out this nice garden salad with vinaigrette dressing. I got about half way through it, decided it tasted disgusting and threw it away. The space in my body for hunger filled with guilt of the wastefulness as you expressed, but oh well food isn't everything and I'm so glad I can think of it that way now.
I used to be such an emotional eater...I'd eat when I was stressed out. I used chocolate as a quick fix when I was sad and baking was a way to pass the lonely time, but now I find myself doing other things.
I can't find the link, but one day I was listening to NPR and a guy was talking about "sugar cravings" and whether or not we actually have them. He said that everyday around 3pm he would start to crave a cookie and so he'd walk down to the cafeteria and grab a cookie. However, he then realized it wasn't the cookie he was looking forward too.
It was getting up and leaving his desk, saying hello and gossiping with coworkers. So, one day he decided to get water instead of the cookie. He would crave a cookie around 3pm, and he'd get up from his desk, pick a coworker to gossip with and go get a water. By the time he returned to his desk his cookie cravign was gone, even though he never ate a cookie. Eventually, he didn't crave the cookie anymore, but looked forward to his socializing time.
He discovered that it wasn't the cookie he actually wanted, but the food was an excuse for something else he needed.
Do I 100% buy this? I'm not sure, but I have been trying to follow it a little bit. When I start wanting chocolate really bad or a mocha latte, I ask myself is it the mocha I want or the coffee shop environment? When I go to the coffee shop and get tea I'm usually pretty satisfied. When I go for a walk with a friend instead of getting pie or chocolate with them, I'm usually satisfied.
So when I feel like eating a whole bag of potato chips or making a milk shake because I couldn't find someone to hang out with on a Saturday night...or I'm in a stubborn mood where I don't feel like going out and yet I still feel lonely even though I CHOSE to stay in...if I create something else, like a painting, a clean kitchen or decide to write, I'm usually satisfied.
My emotional attachment to food is limited right now and I must say I feel pretty good about this.
Life can be lovely sometimes,
Angela
I'm so proud of you for setting those goals. They are realistic baby steps to a healthier lifestyle, it's good that you didn't go above and beyond what you think you can do. In fact, I feel like we should celebrate with ice cream sundaes or something...just kidding, but maybe we can go for frozen yogurt again.
I gotta tell you that the same thing happened with me that happened with you and your healthy sandwich. I had to buy lunch today since I still have been to lazy/cheap to grocery shop. There was the glorious smell of pizza and chicken wings presenting themselves as choices...screaming "Pick me! Eat me!" I even walked over to get them and then I found myself unable to do it...I mean I'm unhappy enough with my body.
So instead I picked out this nice garden salad with vinaigrette dressing. I got about half way through it, decided it tasted disgusting and threw it away. The space in my body for hunger filled with guilt of the wastefulness as you expressed, but oh well food isn't everything and I'm so glad I can think of it that way now.
I used to be such an emotional eater...I'd eat when I was stressed out. I used chocolate as a quick fix when I was sad and baking was a way to pass the lonely time, but now I find myself doing other things.
I can't find the link, but one day I was listening to NPR and a guy was talking about "sugar cravings" and whether or not we actually have them. He said that everyday around 3pm he would start to crave a cookie and so he'd walk down to the cafeteria and grab a cookie. However, he then realized it wasn't the cookie he was looking forward too.
It was getting up and leaving his desk, saying hello and gossiping with coworkers. So, one day he decided to get water instead of the cookie. He would crave a cookie around 3pm, and he'd get up from his desk, pick a coworker to gossip with and go get a water. By the time he returned to his desk his cookie cravign was gone, even though he never ate a cookie. Eventually, he didn't crave the cookie anymore, but looked forward to his socializing time.
He discovered that it wasn't the cookie he actually wanted, but the food was an excuse for something else he needed.
Do I 100% buy this? I'm not sure, but I have been trying to follow it a little bit. When I start wanting chocolate really bad or a mocha latte, I ask myself is it the mocha I want or the coffee shop environment? When I go to the coffee shop and get tea I'm usually pretty satisfied. When I go for a walk with a friend instead of getting pie or chocolate with them, I'm usually satisfied.
So when I feel like eating a whole bag of potato chips or making a milk shake because I couldn't find someone to hang out with on a Saturday night...or I'm in a stubborn mood where I don't feel like going out and yet I still feel lonely even though I CHOSE to stay in...if I create something else, like a painting, a clean kitchen or decide to write, I'm usually satisfied.
My emotional attachment to food is limited right now and I must say I feel pretty good about this.
Life can be lovely sometimes,
Angela
Monday, March 12, 2012
My Goals
Dear Angela,
I can feel your frustration. Sometimes I wonder if all this talk of dieting and exercise is becoming so repetitive, so tedious, so boring. I was eating a healthier chicken sandwich tonight (no dressing, veggies on top, grilled chicken) and I was telling myself:
"Good job Rachel. This is so much better than you falling into old habits of putting junk into your body. Good job! Keep up the good work!" but as I continued eating this thought process was replaced with:
"God, this sandwich tastes awful. It has no flavor at all. I'd rather eat nothing than take another bite of this..."
So, yes, I found myself throwing the food away (which probably takes away environmental points along with my health points). And now here I am- drinking Vitamin Water and what was going to be my dinner is now in the trash can. How lovely.
I haven't said much about my new health plans in previous entries so I feel like I should now. I am trying to set very realistic, hopefully attainable goals. Here they are:
Curve my current eating habits... slowly replace unhealthy eating with healthier eating.
Cut down on the lattes. I wish I could eliminate them completely but for now only 1 a day. Maybe eventually I will just switch to tea and I actually prefer iced tea during the Summer.
Continue to research/figure out how single parents can add exercise to their schedule. I just bought a new stroller for the baby this weekend. This means plenty of long walks in the Spring/Summer. I don't know if you know this but pushing a stroller with a baby in it can actually be a great work-out! If you feel the need to try it... ;)
Possibly joining a gym. I know I should already be signed up for now but with my current schedule I just don't have time for it. Or maybe I just need to get better at making time for it...
And, that's it. I know it seems very small but if I feel like I am meeting my current goals then (and only then) will I take it up another notch. Right now I am also optimistic for warmer weather because for me working out should take place outside.
Until next time,
Rachel
I can feel your frustration. Sometimes I wonder if all this talk of dieting and exercise is becoming so repetitive, so tedious, so boring. I was eating a healthier chicken sandwich tonight (no dressing, veggies on top, grilled chicken) and I was telling myself:
"Good job Rachel. This is so much better than you falling into old habits of putting junk into your body. Good job! Keep up the good work!" but as I continued eating this thought process was replaced with:
"God, this sandwich tastes awful. It has no flavor at all. I'd rather eat nothing than take another bite of this..."
So, yes, I found myself throwing the food away (which probably takes away environmental points along with my health points). And now here I am- drinking Vitamin Water and what was going to be my dinner is now in the trash can. How lovely.
I haven't said much about my new health plans in previous entries so I feel like I should now. I am trying to set very realistic, hopefully attainable goals. Here they are:
And, that's it. I know it seems very small but if I feel like I am meeting my current goals then (and only then) will I take it up another notch. Right now I am also optimistic for warmer weather because for me working out should take place outside.
Until next time,
Rachel
Sunday, March 11, 2012
The Obsessive Overboard Worry
Dear Rachel,
I really hope that by now you are feeling better, especially since I have been a slacker on responding to your blog post.
It turns out Dr. Derek is a genius. I feel like I reached the 4 lb. goal for the month almost instantly...because voila! I weigh 4 lbs. less in the evening, and a little over 6 lbs. when I weigh myself in the morning.
You think I would be happy right? And really I'm thrilled!...and yet the fear of the scale has not gone away, I still have to take a deep breath every time before I step on it. I mean, what if it says I gained the weight back? and why did pounds 4-6 come off instantly but not pounds 7-10?
The whole thing makes me a little manic. Sometimes I feel better about myself for this new healthy lifestyle and sometimes I wonder why I'm doing it at all. I hate that I think about health, weight and calories so often. When do I know if I've gone overboard? I've been told people with eating disorders usually start with small changes too...do they realize when they cross the line between dieting and disorder?
I am proud that I exercise at least six days a week now, but on that ONE day I seem to miss ONCE a week I do feel guilty. I feel guilt in my gut, even though I know I shouldn't, and as I wonder why I don't instantly drop weight-knowing that I'm not even supposed too and that's not the healthy way to lose weight- I think is it because I skipped exercising today?
Maybe Dr. Derek's plan was only drawn up for the first initial 4-6lbs.
Little by little I've been trying to substitute out the unhealthy food in my apartment for what I am told are the more healthy options (i.e. sprout bread instead of regular, laughing cow cheese instead of Kraft, Greek yogurt instead of regular, Cereals with less sugar and organic soups with less sodium...) and it looks like by next week this will have taken full effect. Maybe then pounds 7-10 will come off? But beyond that I am not sure what the next step could be....increase my exercise? Lower my calorie intake even more? This is all starting to sound like a lot of work...
So here's what I've decided to tell myself, stop thinking about it so much and just do it! The time spent on losing weight will increase dramatically.
Sincerely,
Angela
I really hope that by now you are feeling better, especially since I have been a slacker on responding to your blog post.
It turns out Dr. Derek is a genius. I feel like I reached the 4 lb. goal for the month almost instantly...because voila! I weigh 4 lbs. less in the evening, and a little over 6 lbs. when I weigh myself in the morning.
You think I would be happy right? And really I'm thrilled!...and yet the fear of the scale has not gone away, I still have to take a deep breath every time before I step on it. I mean, what if it says I gained the weight back? and why did pounds 4-6 come off instantly but not pounds 7-10?
The whole thing makes me a little manic. Sometimes I feel better about myself for this new healthy lifestyle and sometimes I wonder why I'm doing it at all. I hate that I think about health, weight and calories so often. When do I know if I've gone overboard? I've been told people with eating disorders usually start with small changes too...do they realize when they cross the line between dieting and disorder?
I am proud that I exercise at least six days a week now, but on that ONE day I seem to miss ONCE a week I do feel guilty. I feel guilt in my gut, even though I know I shouldn't, and as I wonder why I don't instantly drop weight-knowing that I'm not even supposed too and that's not the healthy way to lose weight- I think is it because I skipped exercising today?
Maybe Dr. Derek's plan was only drawn up for the first initial 4-6lbs.
Little by little I've been trying to substitute out the unhealthy food in my apartment for what I am told are the more healthy options (i.e. sprout bread instead of regular, laughing cow cheese instead of Kraft, Greek yogurt instead of regular, Cereals with less sugar and organic soups with less sodium...) and it looks like by next week this will have taken full effect. Maybe then pounds 7-10 will come off? But beyond that I am not sure what the next step could be....increase my exercise? Lower my calorie intake even more? This is all starting to sound like a lot of work...
So here's what I've decided to tell myself, stop thinking about it so much and just do it! The time spent on losing weight will increase dramatically.
Sincerely,
Angela
Monday, February 27, 2012
The Sick Day
Dear Angela,
I am anxious to hear how the new changes to your workout are going. Do you feel like more cardio is helping? Do you miss your former workout routine? How are you staying motivated? It is exciting to know you received outside input to help guide you. Good luck on hanging in there! Not to sound cliche but, I know you can do it!
To be honest, fitness and dieting has been far from my mind for the past few days. I've been out sick- sipping tea, reading, sleeping and daydreaming about warmer weather. My appetite has disappeared as well, which is a very strange turn of events. So, until I feel better I will just share some more fitness resources I've found around the web:
Rock My Run. Offers great running/work-out music (for free). In case you need some new tunes to spice up your work-out mix.
Get Fit Fast: Why 30 Minutes Is All You Need. "Our bodies are responsive to the intensity of the exercise, not the time."
Fitness First Bus Stop in Amsterdam, The Netherlands. I don't know how I feel about this. A part of me likes the ingenuity and another part of me feels insulted.
The Most Intense Work-Out of All Time. Puts a smile on my face.
Until next time,
Rachel
I am anxious to hear how the new changes to your workout are going. Do you feel like more cardio is helping? Do you miss your former workout routine? How are you staying motivated? It is exciting to know you received outside input to help guide you. Good luck on hanging in there! Not to sound cliche but, I know you can do it!
To be honest, fitness and dieting has been far from my mind for the past few days. I've been out sick- sipping tea, reading, sleeping and daydreaming about warmer weather. My appetite has disappeared as well, which is a very strange turn of events. So, until I feel better I will just share some more fitness resources I've found around the web:
Rock My Run. Offers great running/work-out music (for free). In case you need some new tunes to spice up your work-out mix.
Get Fit Fast: Why 30 Minutes Is All You Need. "Our bodies are responsive to the intensity of the exercise, not the time."
Fitness First Bus Stop in Amsterdam, The Netherlands. I don't know how I feel about this. A part of me likes the ingenuity and another part of me feels insulted.
The Most Intense Work-Out of All Time. Puts a smile on my face.
Until next time,
Rachel
Friday, February 24, 2012
I Must Begin my Journey
Dear Rachel,
When I read the title to your post these lyrics from Stephen Sondheim's musical started to run through my head:
"Into the woods, It's time to go, I hate to leave, I have to, though. Into the woods--
It's time, and so I must begin my journey."
This is one of my favorite musicals ever. I even tried out for Little Red Riding Hood's part in a production of it once, but I didn't end up getting the part because...well... basically...my boobs were too big...more on that uncomfortable subject in a different blog entry though.

Anyway, as I told you in my last blog, my '40 miles into the woods' (or however many miles I've actually gone) is getting me NO WHERE. It's like I journeyed into the woods only to find darkness and I'm running around in circles until I come out of the woods in the same place I started...*sigh* but don't worry this isn't just another entry where I'm going to whine.
Today I had a fitness/wellness exam complete with consultation at the end. Turns out I'm pretty healthy my waist measurement is even where it should be, my blood pressure could be better...but my weight is awful. I knew what the results would be and yet getting them and talking about them with someone was still emotional.
"I've been trying so hard..." I said.
"For how long?" The wellness consultant asked..we will call him Dr. Derek for the sake of alliteration...
"About 8 weeks now..."
Then I proceeded to tell him I've been working out about 5 days a week and eating no more than 2000 calories each day...I have fallen off this routine/pattern a couple times, but not many for 8 weeks.
"I see," Dr. Derek said. "And what kind of exercise have you been doing?"
I told him I usually split time up between cardio and strength training for about thirty to forty-five minutes and that the cardio is usually high in intensity, like running.
"Okay," He said. "I'm routing for you...you seem to have a very athletic muscular build, so let's try something...most people get the best weight loss results with cardio. 30 minutes at least 3 times-should be 5 times- a week."

I blinked at Dr. Derek.
"Not high intensity, because high intensity burns carbs not fat, but moderate intensity on an elliptical or treadmill should start burning the fat. Do you think you can do that?"
Yeah, easy enough...but wait does this mean I've actually been working too hard at losing weight? I nodded at him.
"Okay," he said. "Let's write that down, your goal is to do 30 minutes of moderate cardio...how many days a week would you like me to put down?"
"Five." I told him, determined to do the ideal goal, not the slacker one.
"Five days a week it is then...eat healthy and hopefully by the end of the month you will have lost at least 4 pounds, if not we will go back to the drawing board."
I sat there and looked at the new goal Dr. Derek had written down for me. A new goal that may even work, the determination is on again. Just then a song floated back into my head, Into the woods it's time to go, I hate to leave I have to though, into the woods--it's time and so I must begin my journey...
When I read the title to your post these lyrics from Stephen Sondheim's musical started to run through my head:
"Into the woods, It's time to go, I hate to leave, I have to, though. Into the woods--
It's time, and so I must begin my journey."
This is one of my favorite musicals ever. I even tried out for Little Red Riding Hood's part in a production of it once, but I didn't end up getting the part because...well... basically...my boobs were too big...more on that uncomfortable subject in a different blog entry though.
Anyway, as I told you in my last blog, my '40 miles into the woods' (or however many miles I've actually gone) is getting me NO WHERE. It's like I journeyed into the woods only to find darkness and I'm running around in circles until I come out of the woods in the same place I started...*sigh* but don't worry this isn't just another entry where I'm going to whine.
Today I had a fitness/wellness exam complete with consultation at the end. Turns out I'm pretty healthy my waist measurement is even where it should be, my blood pressure could be better...but my weight is awful. I knew what the results would be and yet getting them and talking about them with someone was still emotional.
"I've been trying so hard..." I said.
"For how long?" The wellness consultant asked..we will call him Dr. Derek for the sake of alliteration...
"About 8 weeks now..."
Then I proceeded to tell him I've been working out about 5 days a week and eating no more than 2000 calories each day...I have fallen off this routine/pattern a couple times, but not many for 8 weeks.
"I see," Dr. Derek said. "And what kind of exercise have you been doing?"
I told him I usually split time up between cardio and strength training for about thirty to forty-five minutes and that the cardio is usually high in intensity, like running.
"Okay," He said. "I'm routing for you...you seem to have a very athletic muscular build, so let's try something...most people get the best weight loss results with cardio. 30 minutes at least 3 times-should be 5 times- a week."

I blinked at Dr. Derek.
"Not high intensity, because high intensity burns carbs not fat, but moderate intensity on an elliptical or treadmill should start burning the fat. Do you think you can do that?"
Yeah, easy enough...but wait does this mean I've actually been working too hard at losing weight? I nodded at him.
"Okay," he said. "Let's write that down, your goal is to do 30 minutes of moderate cardio...how many days a week would you like me to put down?"
"Five." I told him, determined to do the ideal goal, not the slacker one.
"Five days a week it is then...eat healthy and hopefully by the end of the month you will have lost at least 4 pounds, if not we will go back to the drawing board."
I sat there and looked at the new goal Dr. Derek had written down for me. A new goal that may even work, the determination is on again. Just then a song floated back into my head, Into the woods it's time to go, I hate to leave I have to though, into the woods--it's time and so I must begin my journey...
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Into the Woods
Dear Angela,
Your entry made me remember something a physical trainer told me years ago. I will try my best to paraphrase what he said.
I don't know if this is the most brilliant wisdom of all time but for me I appreciated the metaphor. I also like the reminder that I shouldn't fall victim to trendy diets or magazine articles that promise: "Bikini Body in 30 days!" I must accept the reality you don't get that bikini body in 30 days (unless of course you only have a few pounds to shed to begin with and are already chewing on lettuce in your free time).
Having said this, I am fascinated by trendy diets and diets of all kinds. I like the idea of the losing weight by drinking water diet, I was fascinated (in a sick kinda way) by the Victoria's Secret liquid diet and I have a friend who swears by her version of the Rotation diet. For some reason I just like knowing what is out there. For me, it is a shame no one has pioneered the following diet:
Of course, I could always name this diet now and put it out there for the masses. Except, I would be doing the world a great disservice because if you follow such guidelines your scale should probably just be thrown out the window.
Because we are on the topic of dieting I thought I would share a few resources I have found helpful.
MapWalk. This is for creating your own walking maps. Totally free. You can create your own maps as you please.

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Women's Health. This is my favorite work-out magazine. It puts Shape magazine to shame. I don't know how to describe my love for this magazine exactly but by simply picking it up I feel happier. (As a side note, I also enjoy reading Men's Health.)
Starbucks Nutrition. For people like me. If you aren't careful you can be the person putting on whipped cream (which can add up to 100 calories) or sipping an icy 1,000 calorie frappuccino on a hot summer day. As a general rule- I learn the drinks and then know how to modify them when ordering.
Pinterest. I browse this for both exercise tips and healthy recipes. A recent find includes this green monster smoothie that I plan on whipping up soon. Please note: I don't pay attention to all the thinspiration images that seem to flood Pinterest. I like the idea of healthy skinny but not rib-cages-poking-out skinny. I know for some people this might be their natural body type, which is something different than those who use extreme techniques to become rail thin.
Okay, that is my list of health and exercise resources for now. I will try to find more for the future and maybe you have some of your own you would like to share.
Until next time,
Rachel
Your entry made me remember something a physical trainer told me years ago. I will try my best to paraphrase what he said.
If you want to lose weight and get fit you can't trust any "get skinny quick" schemes. You have to realize it is 40 miles into the woods, 40 miles out of the woods. Meaning, if you have spent a lot of time not eating right and not working out then it will take time for your body to "get those 40 miles out of the woods." So keep going.
I don't know if this is the most brilliant wisdom of all time but for me I appreciated the metaphor. I also like the reminder that I shouldn't fall victim to trendy diets or magazine articles that promise: "Bikini Body in 30 days!" I must accept the reality you don't get that bikini body in 30 days (unless of course you only have a few pounds to shed to begin with and are already chewing on lettuce in your free time).
Having said this, I am fascinated by trendy diets and diets of all kinds. I like the idea of the losing weight by drinking water diet, I was fascinated (in a sick kinda way) by the Victoria's Secret liquid diet and I have a friend who swears by her version of the Rotation diet. For some reason I just like knowing what is out there. For me, it is a shame no one has pioneered the following diet:
Breakfast/Lunch: 1 Starbucks Latte (Medium size, 1 shot of espresso only, 1 flavor shot)
Dinner: Whatever you feel like eating.
In between: Whatever comes your way... so, say your coworkers bring in cookies? Why not! It would be rude to turn them down! (Actually, I feel like dieting in the workplace deserves an entirely different post... stay tuned.)
Of course, I could always name this diet now and put it out there for the masses. Except, I would be doing the world a great disservice because if you follow such guidelines your scale should probably just be thrown out the window.
Because we are on the topic of dieting I thought I would share a few resources I have found helpful.
MapWalk. This is for creating your own walking maps. Totally free. You can create your own maps as you please.

(Image Source)
Women's Health. This is my favorite work-out magazine. It puts Shape magazine to shame. I don't know how to describe my love for this magazine exactly but by simply picking it up I feel happier. (As a side note, I also enjoy reading Men's Health.)
Starbucks Nutrition. For people like me. If you aren't careful you can be the person putting on whipped cream (which can add up to 100 calories) or sipping an icy 1,000 calorie frappuccino on a hot summer day. As a general rule- I learn the drinks and then know how to modify them when ordering.
Pinterest. I browse this for both exercise tips and healthy recipes. A recent find includes this green monster smoothie that I plan on whipping up soon. Please note: I don't pay attention to all the thinspiration images that seem to flood Pinterest. I like the idea of healthy skinny but not rib-cages-poking-out skinny. I know for some people this might be their natural body type, which is something different than those who use extreme techniques to become rail thin.
Okay, that is my list of health and exercise resources for now. I will try to find more for the future and maybe you have some of your own you would like to share.
Until next time,
Rachel
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